So we’re in the middle of the 2nd chemo cycle and have a much better idea of what to expect now.
Each cycle consists of:
- An overnight stay at the hospital where treatment begins at approx 9 AM and Tam is released a little over 24 hours later.
- An outpatient treatment which occurs a week later and is done in a day.
- A two week break before the next cycle begins. Rinse and repeat.
Before (1) and (2) her blood is tested to ensure she is up the fight. We do this at a nearby hospital and have the results couriered to her doctor.
Her hair has begun to fall out 🙁 Hey, if you’re thinking of getting a wig babe I’m learning towards blond 🙂
We’re like ships in the night sometimes and there have been a few days recently where I’ve felt like she’s slipping away.
This round of chemo seems to be hitting her harder than the first. Maybe it’s a cumulative dose effect. Don’t know.
She starts to talk about things I don’t want to hear. Like where all the bitcoins are kept (I think she buried them in the garden somewhere..) and shows me a secret stash of gold rings.
Gold is like money here in Thailand, and at least the price is holding up well in the face of the current pandemic.
Before this cycle began we had a great 24 hours or so where she was back to her old self. Lot’s of energy and loving life.
We stayed at the Pinnacle hotel in Sathorn. She had a swim and we enjoyed watermelon shakes at the rooftop bar. Went for a nice dinner at Ratstube inside the Goethe Instuit complex.
Have to treasure those moments now, they’re few are far between.
I don’t take anything for granted anymore. Most couples spend so much of their time just blindly going through the motions. This will change us both in different ways. Life is precious and not to be wasted.
Funny coming from a guy who has battled depression for the best part of a decade. There were plenty of nights I would lay my head on the pillow at night praying I didn’t wake the next day.
Yet life clung to me like a disease.
Now I need to hang around to take care of her – right now, it’s my life purpose.
Someone recently told me I’m strong. I don’t feel it, that’s for sure.
But I’m a Leo and very true to my star sign. I’ll take care of my pride, as best I can.
Yeah I’m a strong believer in all that bullshit (Tarot too – and I keep staring at the six of swords wondering why I can’t action what it is clearly telling me!)
The Six of Swords invites you to let go of whatever is holding you back, be it from your past or your present circumstances. Instead gaze ahead to your future and choose the way most in alignment with your Highest Good and long-term potential. You will need to make tough decisions and compromises along the way; see it as a rite of passage.
When the reversed Six of Swords shows up in a Tarot reading, you may be going through a personal or spiritual transition or rite of passage so you can leave behind a relationship, belief, or behavioural pattern that is no longer serving you.
If anything, we’ve both reached the point where pretty much all aspects of our lives need to be put under the microscope and re-examined.